Secrets

Is it ever okay to share a secret with someone else?
How many people can you tell a secret to before it is no longer a secret?
Can you keep secrets from someone AND STILL be completely honest with them?
Is it okay to keep secrets from your spouse?
What are the requirements for something to be considered secret.

Don't worry. To my knowledge I am not keeping any secrets from anyone, especially not Marni. I just heard people talking about this somewhere, I don't remember where, Work maybe, and was just thinking about it.

Thou Murmureth. Okay...or no?

So went down to Lilly's big appointment with the cardioligist at Primary Children's in SLC yesterday. What I thought would be an in and out appointent lasted about 2 hours and gave us different info than I expected. I expected they would say it is fine, go home. The response was a little more lengthy.

First a nurse came in and hooked Lilly up to an EKG thing to get a print out of that. You can see pictures on Marni's blog. potterimarn.blogspot.com
Then her Cardiologist came in and listened to her for a while (Lilly was really good by the way, a lot better than she has ever been at the doctors before) and looked at the EKG. He said that like her pediatrician, he thought that the murmur sounded like a Stills Murmur which I guess is an innocent murmur that is nothing to worry about. However, the EKG was not normal. So he had is attending come in and double check. She also thought the murmur sounded innocent, but the EKG was not normal for a normal heart of someone her age. They still didn't think it was anything to worry about, but sent us for some chest x-rays to check the size of her heart to make sure. After that was all done, which took forever, he said that her the size of her heart was within the normal range but was on the big end of that range. Again he and the attending talked and agreed on everything. That being basically they think it is still quit possible that it is nothing to worry about, however because of the EKG results feel that they should definitely run more tests. They said it could be some big long medical term which is basically what athletes have that cause them to drop dead on the basket ball court with no warning. That being said, if it is that she would not have to worry about it for about 20 years, and if needed it could easily be fixed with surgery before that. Basically if it is what it could be, it means there is a small hole or leak between the 2 chambers of the heart, or a small hole in some flap in one of the chambers. Again either way even if it is that, it is nothing to worry about for some time. Now to determine if that is in fact what it is, or if it is just an Innocent murmur, they need to do an ultrasound, that takes about 45 min, and requires that she be still. So for that they will have to sedate her. They also said it is best to do that after she is at least 2 years old, so we will go back in about 6 months. We don't have an exact date yet, they are suppose to call us sometime to get that scheduled. Meanwhile they said not to worry, that even if it does turn out to be a problem it would be much longer than 6 months from now before it would be a concern. So we went to lunch and to IKEA. Both nice. Then to Target, and home. Any further questions, feel free to ask. I tried not to leave anything out.

Update

So this is the last week of class before finals week, and I have been working on homework. As always this stresses me out, so I decided to take a little break.

For todays topic I wanted to write about a little change that took place recently. Other than my wife and some members of her family, I don't think anyone knows about this. I have yet again changed jobs. It actually happend then end of October. This time it was my choice, not something I was forced to do. I chose to leave Qwest for a better less stressful job. I won't go into the details, as it is boring, but basically I was already stressed out with school, qwest was stressful, mostly because of numbers that we were expected to meet, that seemed unmeetable no matter how hard we tried, and then to top it all off we were required to work overtime everyday, because they did not have enough employees because everyone was either getting fired for not meeting their numbers, or quiting before they could get fired. I talked to my coach, the manager that does the schedules and the Human resources people, and was basically told by everyone to deal with it, that they would not take away my overtime and let me work a normal 40 hour week. My Coach even suggested that if the overtime was taking away from my study time, that maybe I should sacrifice Family time, so I could devote the time they were requiring to work, and time to school. That was pretty much the last straw for me. So I looked around and found a new job. I now work at Feature films for Families. I work customer service, but don't actually have to talk to customers. I never work overtime, and I get off earlier in the day giving me more time for school and family. I had to take a small pay cut in the beginning, but am already getting raises and should be making more now or close to it than I was at Qwest, and I have more raise possibilities ahead that I did not have at Qwest. All in all, I like it a lot better.

I think I mostly have not said anything to anyone because I figure everyone already thinks I change jobs way too much, and this is just more evidence of that. In fact, what other people would think about that, or about me as a result of that was one of the things I considered when debating on whether on not to change jobs. In the end I decided working at a job with less stress, more opportunities for raises and more time for school and family was far more important than what other might think. So if you think I was wrong to change jobs yet again, please know that your opinion mattereth not to me. I am happier now.